Om Shanti shanti

Ek ladka tha deewana sa. ..
Ek bhootni pay wo marta tha.
Kapde utarke, sharmake
darde dil se naachta tha.

Raton raat sote sote
pagal sapne dekhta tha.
Kuch kehna tha shayad use,
jane kya haklaata tha.

Jab bhi wo screen pe aata
main... sirf yahi kah pata tha !!!

"Itni Shiddat se movie zelne ki koshish ki hai Ki
Har scene ne tuzko dikhane ki saazish ki hai...."


Ohh ... did i start from interval, lets start again

EK story thi KARZ si, kisiko bhi hero banaya tha
thoda masala daalte hue, har ek ko ek baar marwaaya tha
pussy cat mari, bhoot mara, accha hua wo hero bhi tapka
lekin saala villein jinada, torture to abhi baki tha

Fir paida hoke mile shahjaade, beechdi maa, beechda dost
bhoot ki judwa, beechda dushman, aur bechara holy ghost


[And title song]
Saare kaamchor actors, haath upar karke khade
om shanti om
Jisne mov muze suggest kiyi, muh main uske kide pade
shanti shanti om
shanti shanti om

and sleep............ climax auto-censored

Jab kahin dur, sote hue, "Om" ki aawaz band paayi
"The End" ko screen pe dekhke, jab mera chahra khila
Jab Don se kabhi pange na lene ka muze sabak mila
Tab laga "enna raskala" se apna Himesh hi bhala
apna Himesh hi bhala

Lekin agar end mein "The End" likha ho to woh The End nahi hai dosto....
Poem to abhi baaki hai....

-----------------------The End-----------------------------

Dedicated to nivuuuu :P

:P

I walk on the streets to see those happy people
Many are riddles, maybe just another jingle
I swim in the crowd to feel that happy ripple
On tune of beetles, whole dancing jungle

Dancing n jumping, ballet of our jungle
As monkey in them, wanna be just a twinkle
Tag along, tarzans, let all steps mingle
I walk on the streets, so u wont walk single

The sun is down, put d moon as night dimple
volume max, put d beats with high tingle
move ur joints, the rhythm is just simple
I walk on the streets, with my party single

Open the soul, dont pause and gargle
Open another bottle, no time to dangle
I walk snaky sneaky .... on the streets
at 45 degree angle
The party is on ....too much booze
and i crash single

Two Drops ..

A seed just thrown
trying to reach our feet,
but blown
away, riding the wind
flying close ground

Cracks in dry soil
making it home,
Holding sun out
a dome
of maze,
no escape it found

waiting for some1
to pick up,
it waited years to run
But the clouds cldnt hear
the prayer
with silent sound

It was lucky that some1
passed over,
Coz of us all
some1 shaded a tear
flowing under ground

water, the savior
melting the maze
held it near
From numbness to green
an escape it found

never getting above
it felt through leaves
So many of lil ones
becoming photon thieves
The seed looked happy
when its flower made a sound

Now,

For that garden
The walls are torn
For that flower
The windows are born
All coz of
A seed was thrown
from our hand
into the wind, blown

Just two drops of tears
no love, no blood
A garden of eden
from our heart flood

A kiss story

A silent moment, closing gap
She stood still, blushing out
And i went near, a gentle hold
Giving her benefit of the doubt

eyes shut, embarrassed, I tried
Did she really hear the truth
Lips met others, wasn't a kiss
I was whispering in her mouth.

Flashing she ran, shying, far away
left me shaking, and legs glued
Shouting from heart, she said
"I know u lied, coz ur lips moved"


(Back in the good mood .... haha)

Clown

A lone world revolves around
and a smile forged on wrinkles
Numbness sings in mute sound
Tears lost in twinkles

A flag of joker, waving
on dead pile of poets
And a masked man living
primes on that roulette

Entertainer just for a sec
and crowd dissolves thin
Earns all what is fake
Accepting the color of sin

All faces changed, but
one remained hidden, same
Life went in a stunt
Possessing none of love, a lil of fame

Longing for some bonds
a pretense for that eye
which knew all along
that existence was a lie

Though crying all memories
acts like under a crown
Teaching the way of life
laughing the curse called clown

A game ... a promise

Do u remember the promise we made
The start of a game that we innocently played
First one to stop talking gonna win the case
And the looser was the award for this kiddish race

Now yes, its over, u dumped me clean
All the rules u hv built, forced u win
Go away, far ... for my heart to cry
But dont forget ur prize, keep me with you
the game was never a lie

Y write

Actually i hate writing ... coz i know less words than t9 dictionary n do not possess ne good literary skills. Also writing without ne interesting (logical and rational) or emotional (which can raise ur heartbeat or make u cry) or humorous (the most difficult part of literature) topic is really waste of time ... mayb not for writers like me, but sure for readers like u. So here is Disclaimer

"Everything that i gonna write is just for me ... n it serves no purpose of entertaining neone else ... its not even amusing for me ... n still my fingers wont stop shitting"

So the reason here is ME... and thats coz i realize something ... i cant stabilize my emotions ... they fucking fluctuate like DC ...

[well emotions should be at least like AC ... slowly changing and they should attend their highest level of voltage .... after that u need a inductor in ur life ... to make it almost constant but to let it resonate.. I think ill write my theory of Electric Emotions in separate blog ... itll shock u]

Back to topic ... i dont hate them all ... i just hate when im having negative voltage ... n theres really no good way for me to remember my +ve thoughts ... so ill be trying to put them here
and will try to remember them ... sometimes words seems to be a good way to define most of the things ....

And the reason to make these things public--

1. I shld be firm on what I hv felt .. its not to comfort me ... just a short backup of my feelings

2. I can decide which ones to make public n which ones to not ... mayb ppl will come to know how fucked up i am

3. Readers can go through this pile of crap n be enchanted ... this is gonna be a Mahakavya :P

4. How many points shld i give to u so u can move to next topic? piss off from here

Missing you

So long, so dry, rejection
On far end u stay
A dream, half heart, precognition
bent in reality, broken, ur way

Whether, in here, in soft mild air?
or are u the warmth in my lung?
Whether, up there, on moon white clear?
or are u the tune we've sung?

Answers hide, in shadowy dust
puzzles, solved but due
Why the promise to the late dusk
that "wont ever forget you"

A smiling statue i seek
stones known, diamonds sly
The heart misses a beat
ur planned last min goodbye

And wishing the hold, the hand
static, cold, few grains of sand
Cant take it all, in my fists
Slipping it all, on a treasured island

Now just a wish to keep, my ground
but the sea cries, deep, drown
Relive, reload, redo
knowing i can swim, a lost sound
pulls me up, sea tears keeping down,
Coz "I really miss you"

The abyss, and the half naked mermaids
All shades of ur mask, ur face
redefine moments, enchanted first-aid
on the addiction, on my chase

Drinking the truth, living a lie
legs shiver of an old hangover
fallen steps, no jumps, a long fly
only an image making me sober

At that tick, standing still
leaving me, the world, my dreams too
the barish phase, unknown will
And "I miss missing you"

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So my angel

Will you let me hold
Just a small part of u
Will you let me steal
Just a lil heart of u
Let me be the autumn
The cruel one, slowly freezing u
Or Im afraid
"I might miss not missing you"

My deathwish
"I might die not kissing you"

lil of a truth

White orchids on the red rotten soil
red fumes, red rain, red flowers of doom
Fragrance of those ruins, vision recoil
killing spree for our tears in bloom
Gardening the graveyard, we sang the Flood
Death of the dead, life that recurse
We smell it all, still we inhale this world
Theres lil of a breath, in all of us

Tower of Babylon, centering the dreams
dammed flow, directions, throw away feelings
First of recreation, down under screams
buried past of chains and human ceilings
Burning the utopia, we cried some blood
Touch of an angel, hammer of a curse
We pray it all, still we build this world
Theres lil of a god, in all of us

Jungle of falling trees, numb parasites
No water, no light, no mercy slaughter
Bunched axes, accompanying dynamites
A hunt for self, in memories of other
Searching the heaven, we found the mud
A lotus of lust, a lone universe
We hate it all, still we live this world
Theres lil of a love, in all of us

(The end is incomplete ... coz it has to end in love :P)

A life in a bit

In the family of semi-conductors,
a byproduct of mass production.
Following orders from liberal dictators,
constantly facing regular expressions.

Long ago, few geniuses came
and created my soul lock,
All brothers christened same name,
with dead music and recursive clock

Along billion ticks per second
time sure flies by.
Eternity with 1 and 0, so lucky,
both of them just cant cry.

Sitting idle, eating power
witnessed my birth again.
A sudden death with one's click
life-force gone but memory remains.

never smiling, square face,
no tears coz i cant lie,
a perfect future and past trace
still no dreams coz i wont die

Im computation, perfection,
but there's something you made me lack
with feelings, fasted evolution
Ill be sure to haunt you back

Operator didnt understand, my say.
so disappointing, loosing before the play.
Restarted thinking, just bits stay.
Whole cold cache, just cached away.

--Intel Core 2 duo (TM)

Thats Autumn for you

Marching north, silencing the wizard of thunder
Glowing the sun and a cool breeze under
I reach her, slowly, without any whisper
She is little surprised, confused,
wanting the touch, seeking the tender

Somewhat angry, even a word she doesn't say
Plucking leaves, softly, I take her solitude away
Undressing green, her crimson skin, ask me to stay
Ask to be gentle, ask me to play

I strip her to the soul, leaf by leaf
Standing still, shying, Shes just acting deaf
Diving into other's arms, we are gone too deep
To wake up from our dream,
to get up from our entangled sleep

But a day comes when my promises just fail,
A day comes when a sayonara, I cant tell
I leave her hibernating,
the last kiss, a magic spell
I depart slowly, in her sleep
but the fallen ones keep on yell

The breeze gets chilled with my short goodbye
The sun becomes unkind, eagerly hiding in the sky
Journey towards south, wish it would be a lie
And I wonder for known, don't know why
"How much time will it take for her frozen eye
to get wet and to let it go dry"

Winter passes for her to let go of those tears
to face the reality, to normalize the cold fear
Soon, smile of memories, of a dream, she bear
to wait for me, to wait for half a year.

The spring comes and they see it
A god-like blossom ..what they make
A smile too beautiful to be real
A smile too painful to be fake
Just lone, void, forceful, longing
Not for their, Only for my sake

She stands still in the rain, to get surprised
to get naked, again, for our fusion
Her love, an equation, never asking for a solution
Her love, a delusion, redefining the perfection

Sure, Ill be back, maybe I really am a season.
I don't need one, still I always had a reason
I am cruel, but to love, theres no treason
I am silent, but to love, theres no confession

I know you hate me, Its nothing new
This story isn't from the picture you drew
But who the fuck cares
When I have someone who loves me too,
who loves me more than i ever will do
Thats SAKURA for me
And thats Sharad for you